I remember...I see

Looking back...I remember when Hailey was fully included in a regular Kindergarten classroom.  I remember that she had her 6th birthday party and 6 regular developing girls came from her class!  I remember that they jumped in the jump house in the rain laughing and playing.  I remember that they dried their wet little feet by the fire.  I remember that Hailey smiled and played with them.  I remember that...

Looking back...I don't remember when things changed.  I don't remember when the regular developing children began to shy away from her.  I don't remember when the stares from children at school began.  I don't remember when she began to pull other children's hair.  I don't remember when she began to strip her clothes off when she was having a fit.  I don't remember when...

Looking back...I remember when she was a baby.  I remember that we use to go on playdates with Zach's friends.  I remember that I use to sit with the other mommies and laugh and watch our kids play on the playground.  I remember that she use to smile at the clouds.  I remember that I could take her anywhere.

Looking back...I don't remember when I stopped being able to take her anywhere.  I don't remember when I stopped being able to go on playdates with other children.  I don't remember when I stopped having a connection with other mommies.  I don't remember when...

But now...I do see that she still smiles at the clouds.  I do see that she still loves to sit by the fire and warm her toesies.  I do see that we can have playdates with Aubrey and Mommy and Hailey.  I do see that she has 2 friends from her class coming to her party.  I do see that she still laughs and plays with those children.  I do see that she is growing and developing into a lovely young lady.  I do see...

I do see how much joy she brings us and how much she is loved....