My Happiness Project

Interestingly enough, I have been on a waiting list at the library to get the Happiness Project.  I love the library and I love to read.  I had heard about this book last year when my friend Tiffany at elastamom.com had started reading it.  I had forgotten that I had even put myself on the waiting list...and then it appeared in my inbox, a reminder that it was finally waiting for me!  And what perfect timing.

Lately, I've been feeling pretty down.  I've been trying the mantra "fake it till you make it" but it just isn't working out very well for my internal happiness.  I miss Tracey like crazy.  Hailey has been struggling and recently we found out that she would have to have a second procedure to fix her two front teeth.  Aubrey is a typical, attention seeking 5 year old.  And I'm trying to start a real estate career to boot!

So I was so excited to get it.  I am about 1/2 way into it and it is such a great read.  

I have realized that really, I am pretty happy.  I just don't approach things at with a happy slant.  I have realized that my hubby thinks that I am happy and most of my friends think that I am happy.  So maybe happy is just subjective.  Now it is time for me to appreciate my life for what it is and to wash the ugly internal voice out of my head telling me that I'm not happy "enough".  

It's time to just be Andrea and let that be good enough for those around me.  And for those that don't really like who I am, I am going to have to be happy with that too.